Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Yesterday I Had A Cow, Today The Cow Is Dead.


I'll be brief. I called this morning to explain my situation about taken the wrong test. I invested time and money these past 4 months trying to get into the Alternative Certification Program for the Dallas ISD. I have spent at least $300 dollars in application fees, test fees, and courses. I invested hours on writing essays in both English and Spanish, researching bilingual teaching, meeting several times for interviews with officials. I took two part-time jobs to be able to afford the gas and the fees. I was told this morning that not only my money will not be reimbursed, but that is useless to take the "right" test now because it would be too late for me to be included in the program. So I will not be admitted as a teacher for 09-10. Misinformation and unclear instructions cost me my future livelihood. As simple as pressing the "wrong" button in the computer when I registered for that test one month ago. It is as if they want to get rid of the good candidates, and damn it I am a good candidate fluent in three languages and well versed in history, art and literature. (Please mind my immodesty, but I need to get it out!) I just do not understand. Am I being to naive? Right now I do not know what I am going to do next. Of course, I must look for another job. I am sad, very sad and frustrated. We have become numbers with a long list of check lists trailing behind us, we are being approved or disapproved impersonally.

9 comments:

tangobaby said...

Oh! I am so so sorry. I wish there was something I could do for you...

Teri and the cats of Furrydance said...

I am so very sorry...how soul destroying.

I hate it when bad things happen to good people...as trite as that sounds, it is heartfelt.

willow said...

Oh, this is terribly unfair. I'm so sorry. Break out that ice cream. I'll have a scoop with you!

Avril Fleur said...

I'm sorry to hear that Cowboy. That is SO not fair, since you've put in all the time, effort and money. I am hopeful that this door closing means that another window of opportunity is opening for you somewhere, that would not have otherwise been available had you gone down this road.

The Pink Cowboy said...

At this moment I feel a little bit depressed, to tell you the truth. I know I'll move on. It just seems lately that I am living a series of move on situations, life seems erratic. I do feel that the Universe will provide and maybe I was better off without this job. It still hurts. Thank you for your kind words and support. It makes a real difference to realize that I am not isolated.

bb mcclain said...

I'm sorry about that. It is impersonal searching for any job, unless you have connections.

Dusty Devoe said...

I's so sorry cowboy. I am a believer of "things happen for a reason." I am still trying to figure out why we have gone through the crap we have the last two years. But, you sound like a great guy, hang in there, and something BIGGER and BETTER will come along!!!

Perspective RAD said...

Sorry about that.. And I'm a believer to that things happen for a reason... not always good things, but for the greater good. There is a purpose. Don't give up :)

nollyposh said...

Hmmmm there's something a going on 'out there' alright... Perhaps all we can do is hold your hand and have faith that there is a plan to this slamming of a door! (((hugz))) x